I sit here waiting and trusting.
My husband, Chuck, and our son, Zach, are in Chicago today. Zach had an audition with Berklee College of Music in Boston. The audition was in Chicago.
This is Zach's dream school. It's the school he wants to go to. As far as I know, he doesn't have a Plan B.
Boston is a long way from Nebraska. It's a long way from our influence, but not a long way from our prayers or God.
If Zach passes the audition, I pray he gets good scholarship money and grants. I also pray that he gets plugged into a good church and makes strong Christian friends who will be a positive influence in his life.
I'm praying that he passes that audition with flying colors and gets plenty of scholarship money. If that's not the Lord's will, then I pray that our loving Father will quickly provide that Plan B - and that it will be a wonderful plan, indeed.
So here I sit.
Waiting for a phone call from my husband to tell me how things went.
But I've also got my Bible open to Psalms. I've asked God to talk to me and my fingers found their way to Psalm 135, which in part says: "Praise the Lord. Praise the name of the Lord; praise him, you servants of the Lord, you who minister in the house of the Lord, in the courts of the house of our God.
"Praise the Lord, for the Lord is good; sing praise to his name for that is pleasant.
"For the Lord has chosen Jacob to be his own, Israel to be his possession.
"I know that the Lord is great, that our Lord is greater than all gods.
"The Lord does whatever pleases him, in the heavens and on the earth."
It's true that the Lord is in charge. He does what he wants and what he knows is best.
So here's where the trust comes in.
No matter what happens, I trust my God. I know he wants what's best for us. And I rely on his words: "I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord of hosts, plans to prosper and not harm you; plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you and you will seek me and find me when you seek me with your whole heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13.
In this gray twilight of uncertainty, I have to trust that my God is good. He is faithful. He knows what's best.
So I wait.
And I trust.